Drips and Drabs

I realized I need my own rant after reading and posting on "Brown Town", Lisa and Joel's blog! So much of what they are going through right now is what I'm about to go through! Minus the HUGE premature baby incident, we have a lot of the same stuff going on.

I worry a lot about how Delyah and Aiden will get along. Right now D thinks babies are the bee's knees, but will she think so when she can't carry Aiden around? She goes into little hitting fits right now, especially when she's being disciplined or getting tired. It's not a huge deal for her to hit Andy and I, she doesn't do it hard, she's 2, but for a new little baby it's another story!

I wonder what my life will be like trying to take care of a week old baby and a busy 2 year old by myself after Andy goes back to work. We are already always coming and going in opposite directions, it's going to be so hard to do this! I'd feel horrible for waking him up at night for help when he's working and I'm off, but at the same time I'll be so exhausted I won't know my up from down anymore. I don't remember a lot of the first few weeks with D, just being so exhausted.

Speaking of not remembering much from D's first few weeks, I'm scared of how to take care of this baby! I had so much constant help from my mom and dad (constructive AND otherwise) that I'm scared to do it by myself. Andy has even less experience than I do! About my only saving peace of mind is my mother-in-law just down the street whose an RN. She has been quite handy in the past, and I don't expect much different this go around! When all else fails she's a phone call away, which is a lot more than I can say for my own mother!

I know we'll get through it all ok, I just worry. A lot. But that's what Andy's for, to calm me down! Too bad he still has 5 more hours to his shift :(